One of the reasons I have not been actively “blogging” is because I have been writing a daily journal and sending it to my therapist. So now she knows all my secrets, and you don’t. Seriously, it is so much easier to jot down “my thoughts” quickly in the morning with my coffee than sit down and write with all the interruptions I have during the day, and I have a lot of interruptions. Journaling is life changing.
Gary loves music. So, when I heard, Emmy Lou Harris was coming to town, I thought it would be fabulous idea to buy tickets for the whole family to take Hooch to see his all-time favorite singer, song writer/girlfriend. And it was.
We celebrated all weekend, and early Sunday morning everyone dropped by with doughnuts in hand for breakfast, one last performance, a little more slime time, and a lot of goodbye hugs.
Then I sat down. I picked up my phone and wrote “MY Thoughts”, to my therapist. It went something like this:
The weekend was full force with all the love, a bit of teenage boy drama, cousins playing with cousins, and sister spending time with brothers. Nothing in the world can make me happier than to see the love and support my kids give to one another.
My house is miserably quiet. I miss the noise and the mess so much it physically hurts. I will rally, but for now I am wallowing my whole body into this giant pile of sad.
I think everyone got an up close and personal perspective of what is going on here. Like watching a storm approaching from across the ocean horizon. It is not an easy scene to witness. They all, grandchildren included handle Hooch with the kind of compassion I wish I had. We are all struggling.
I’m going to wallow for just another minute or two…not too long… I’ve got shit to do. I mean sheets.
49 years ago
As usual you say it well!!!! Good job my dear friend. You need to write a book!🤔What should the name be? 🩷
Awe Carol, so nice! I will probably print all the journals I have written…and I will dedicate to you, my loyal bff! You have always been there and an incredible listener! Love we have had over 50 years of fun!
You are so loved and we try to understand. We have empathy, but until you are in the storm, We have no clue. We just know we love you, support you, and would do anything for you!
I do feel loved Jane. Gary says “I love you” thousands and thousands of times a day…to me and everyone else he runs into…to say it doesn’t get old would be a lie…but I am loved and that is all that matters! Love you!!!!
My dearest Tracy! It’s been too long since we have spoken and caught up! I am reading between the lines, as I follow along w everyone else’s posts.
Your stories are beautiful and your family, well, you are very blessed to have them so close! It’s so special to spend time and make those memories w them. Sounds like you have a loving family support system.
I send love to you and Gary, through
Your journey, everyday is an adventure I am sure. Would love to see you. Miss those times we talked while you were on the porch.
❤️❤️❤️❤️
My porch parties were my therapy then for sure. I never drank alone. (I don’t mind now;) My “support team” is amazing. Family and friends…thanks to Gary always being the nice guy that he is!
I miss you too and I think about you all the time. I hope you and your girls are well. Keep in touch.
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and struggles. Thank you for sharing your joys and love. Thank you for helping us all to remember that life can be messy and families are held together by love and memories. I think of you often.
Big hugs & love,
Leelee
Hey, you little mermaid…I find by telling the world “My thoughts” I’m in it with a world of other people in it just as deep. Or deeper. We don’t get by without the help of our friends. Thank you, my friend.
Sending lovecand hugs. We have friends going through it way too young. I don’t like getting old and get sad about that.i have wondered how you are and pray for strength.
Thank you, Jill. Sometimes I forget I’m old. haha… Thank goodness Gary is good looking, it’s a lot more fun to take care of a handsome man;)
I almost messaged you Sunday (I never stay on task) to tell you that I missed your blog. So glad you’re writing again!
It’s a lot easier to write down what pisses me off on a daily basis than to sit down and write an entire blog about all the stuff that pisses me off all month. haha!
YOU are amazing! All the people in your life are lucky to have a part of Tracey Kelley Gaines! Love you honey pie!
My life is strictly based on luck…but I’ll take it! Thank you, Charlotte. I love you!
It’s tough Tracy. So happy you have the support of your wonderful family. Prayers for patience, strength and love. Emmy Lou was such a gift!
Life is hard, but we are hanging in there and still find a ton of stuff to laugh about! Love my family and did you know we named our pup Emmy Lou…so we have an Emmy Lou here with us every day!
Love you both.💕
You are a sweet cousin…always have been. We love you!