Quiting is something I am just not able to do. Since I never found “my calling”, there is not anything to quit. Not ever having a career, must be the same to me, as never having children is to Oprah. I never felt I would be good enough or could possibly love something so much that I would be willing to invest my life to it. So, now I find myself a little lost because my retirement is not around the corner. A few close friends are retiring soon. They already have plans to sleep late, travel more and not worry about stocking their shelves but just watching their stocks! Sounds so fun, meanwhile I’m going to have keep doing exactly what I am doing forever.
What do you want to be when you grow up? Dr.? Lawyer? Indian Chief? I wanted to be a Radio City Music Hall Rockette, however my 10 years of committed dance lessons at Betsy Kay’s Dancing School did not send me down THAT path. (whatever…the critics gave my recital performances stupendous reviews) I would sing if I could, but I found out from Mrs. Burt, my 6th grade music teacher, that I could not. I remember knowing, with out any doubt, I wanted to be Haley Mills, Sally Fields, or Shari Lewis. My little secret is, when I was young I had, ( and what my parents feared) lesbian tendancies, as I was more in love with them than Ricky Nelson. My career never evolved, although, as you can see, I tried.
I have had jobs. Quite a few, and if I could have a “do over”, I may have made a career out of one of them, however, I never got the feeling that my boss saw “opportunites” in my future. My most suitable job was being a flight attendant. I’ll never forget watching an airplane soar into the sky, while driving past Hartsfield -Jackson International and thinking…I don’t know or care where that plane is going, I only wish I was on it. Then after 8 years of flying, I remember thinking, I don’t know nor do I care where that plane is going, I’m so damn glad I’m NOT on it. As exhilarating as that job was, after a while, the thrill was gone. I still love hanging out in airports. You never know when a famous person may pass you by, like the time I saw George Clooney. He didn’t wave.
Typically most people don’t get a chance to “follow their dreams”, but this doesn’t mean they haven’t had a great career, or a fabulous life with blessings and tribulations. I admit, I’m a little bit jealous when I hear someone say, “I love what I do”, but in all honesty, “I love what I don’t do”!
After all, A good life is suppose to be about the balance…moderation (which we all know is much over rated) and attitude. I want to be forever young when I grow up, and I have no intentions of retiring!